I grew up in a abandon house if not why didnt we have a window and door which was replace by wood? All those years, this mean, angry family NEVER got new ones. Im a child and thinking everyone else on the block has doors and window. It was so much chaos and hollering, physical/mental/verbal/ abuse, nobody caring about anyone unless it's drugs..no drugs more pain. we moved and some went their own way but continue to think with small minds! I have a cousin who treated her daughter the way she was. I took her daughter out blessed her with STUFF she should have feminime products/hairstyles/shoes and so forth. her mother called my aunt(both were probably jealous) aunt called me and said my lil cousin stole from me?? mind you my aunt never calls only to start trouble.
My grandmother kept me in mental hospitals from the time I was 18 till a while back(thinkin it was a game she'll call ppl and say ';shes in the crazy hospital?) once she lied to the doctors saying Im up all nite and sleep all day which she later she told me to get sum drugs for herself..Why did she do these things? My grandmother and aunt stole big things from me a couple of times I leave them along and feel guilty let them back in, they back to their shanagans...seem like it was more than drugs Im thinking something mentally wrong....ppl tell me I need to seek therapy but I dont trust them after my family played sike games w/ me and had me thinking I was the mental one...when clearly shows they are F**ked up!!! it's like I been diagnois with this and that BUT IF THEY EVER KNEW MY HELL OF A FAM...IM THE NORMAL ONE TRUST!!
Im glad Im nothing like them dont think Im better(must be)I just think about myself and give when I can to myself and others, I have enuff and can do with wat I have so I share and show love for myself. my family hated to see me happy. No one in my family is married my mother was but they were jealous she walked down the aisle..you can see a picture of my grandmother looking mean like she does (all the time) on a picutes..I was their scapegoat in the family they call cuss me out and feel better. Today I think why didnt they have SENSE ENUFF TO BUY A DOOR AND WINDOW(if you can answer let me know)!!!
They are beyond petty it's like it's nothing but hate my grandmother told me how she use to do demonic things to ppl when she was growin up which sum stuff she did to me(imagine 2 girls share a cup, but imagine being force w/o the throw up and eating from where that waste really goes??) she did my brother like that didnt make him eat it just made him dig his hands in it for something he didnt do, she use to burn him with hot water...she also a molester TRUST ME ON THIS...I thought she only did these things to me. I was mistaken but I got it the worst..ppl said I was her favorite guess her favorite was a insider for her the tournment she gaved out..
I left my family along after MJ died when he left his father out the will he wasnt that jacko..he had to know what it felt like to leave your father out but still can leave money to charities...I forgave my family I just would like to know what made them act like animals?? so much stuff happen to me in my life with this family which I forgive and they do more evil stuff to me but like I said I left them along!!
I would like to know how are they feeling and if their life still the same petty and dare wouldn't see the BIG PICTURE?? what would make ppl act like that for generations? my mother at peace rite now.. Im sad w/o a family but happy to know I love myself to not be bother.
it's like they always worried about the next instead of themselves, My mother had style and ppl loved her. I have style and ppl love me somehow Im unsure coming from the family I came from.People without family or made the right decision of not speaking to them for ';insanity'; sake and peace of mind?
Hurting people, hurt people. Sometimes we come from bad family and we have to cut ties with them, but you make your own family from people you meet. Let the past go, and move forward and chase your own dreams. Narcissistic personality disorder is 85% alcoholics and/or drug addicts, 15% they believe are children who were raised by alcoholics or drug addicts, or just simply put down by someone when they were small children. Someone hurt them when they were little and made them feel small, and that is why they do it to other people. They have to put others down in order to make themselves feel bigger. (Not that that is an excuse.) They think they are God like, Saints, with grand egos, I call them destroyers, they just destroy people. In their mind they are right and the world is all wrong, they don't have a problem, you do. They put others down because they are bullies, and cowards. They put others down because they have no self esteem. If they are putting you down, and pointing out your flaws, no one is noticing their flaws. In their mind they think it is their job to put others down, it is their duty. They are social, and the rest of the world is anti social, they are perfect and you are the one who is flawed. They cannot and do not take responsibility for their actions and behaviors, so they will never say they are sorry, because in their mind they have done no wrong, they have done nothing to be sorry for. They can go to therapy for years and have no change in their behavior or actions, because in their mind they are saints, and perfect, so they have nothing to change about themselves. They will always be a jerk, they will never change, they can never change, in their mind they don鈥檛 do anything to wrong, so they don鈥檛 do anything that needs changing, or anything to apologize for. I am not really sure if they even comprehend how they hurt other people. The best thing to do is to stay away from these people if possible. They cannot change and they will just bring you down. My in laws are this way, so I know how you feel. After 20 years of abuse they are now banned from my house. While they had the benefit of putting us down and hurting our feelings, they did pay a price. They are now retired and none of their children, their spouses, even their grand children, none of us want to be around them. They enjoyed abusing us all those years, and now they spend their holidays alone. They do pay a price. Hurting people, hurt people. One thing that I have learned to do is to stop playing the blame game. If my husband goes berserk on me, instead of saying ';What did I just say? What did I just do to cause that?'; I stop and take myself out of the situation. I realize that his outburst was not about me, but he had talked to his father that day, or his brother pooped on him and he is taking it out on me. So I stopped taking the blame and shame and guilt for his behavior. If I did something wrong, then fine it is my bust, but if it isn't about me, I stop taking on the poop that goes with the situation. You have to realize that when people are hurting, the ';issue'; is not the ';real issue'; You have to take yourself out of the picture and think ';what is hurting this person today?'; You learn this when you deal with customers, but it works in real life too. A customer can have a problem long before you meet them, and the slightest thing you say or do, causes an explosion. It isn't about eggs, it is about a man who's wife just died. It isn't about a parking spot, it is about a woman who's 4-year-old got killed by a drunk driver. It isn't about your boyfriend, your mothers dog just died. Hurting people, hurt people. So maybe a person staying at a hotel complains about the noise in the room, but maybe the real problem is that they got a speeding ticket, someone cut them off on the highway, or maybe they are not staying in the hotel for recreation, maybe they came in for a funeral and they are stressed about that. So the 'issue'; of the noisy room, is not about a noisy room, but about the stress of a funeral. So whatever the narcissistic person is blaming you for, it is probably not the issue. They find fault in every situation, there is always someone else to blame, some issue to blame. It is not about you, your sister, your friend, the store, if you were not standing in front of them, they would blame someone else. If you don鈥檛 go to school, the school bully does not turn into a saint because you are absent that day, they just bully someone else. So stop yourself when the narcissistic person starts to blame you for whatever the issue of the day is, stop and don鈥檛 claim the blame, realize they are hurting for something that has nothing to do with you. You have to stop yourself every day, every time they do this, every time there is blame. It isn鈥檛 just once, you have to stop every time they try to dump something on you, you have to stop playing the blame game until you get away from that person. Don鈥檛 fall into the trap, don鈥檛 let them draw you back into the game, don鈥檛 claim fault that isn鈥檛 yours, really isn鈥檛 yours. You have to stop and take yourself out of the situation, and stop playing the blame game, and stop taking on the hurt and pain and anger and guilt of others, it isn't fair to you.People without family or made the right decision of not speaking to them for ';insanity'; sake and peace of mind?
You probably could use the advice of a therapist and focus more on how you want yourself to be in the life of your own. Learn from others mistakes and don't let them become your own. Read the newspapers and talk to more knowledgeable people, get an education and be proud of your great accomplishments.
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