More Then Just A Crush?

Ok, now before i go on, i know this is sad.

But i just need help on this topic.

And don't make up your mind before you read until the end, thank you.



So anyways, i'm your normal teen 14 year old guy, and i get crush's allot and they go away, some last longer then others, and some don't.



Anyways i was just reading some stuff on the internet one day and came across some news about Vannessa Hudgens, the High School Musical star. And it was about more nude photo's being found, didn't care and went on with my day.



But then i watched a couple of her videos on youtube.etc and i was just intoxicated. Really, i swear to god i have no idea why i was feeling this way.



I love everything about her, her face, her personality, her voice, the way she acts... everything.



And whats really weird is that i knew who she was before, for about 3 or so years i knew how she looked and everything. But now, out of nowhere i SUDDENLY feel so in love... i don't get it.



Now here's why i think its more then just a crush or lust, mainly because i have had lust before, and it goes away after a LONG time, same with a crush. But this is different, also, one time i threw up (not kidding) because i was feeling so in-love with here and i just had a weird feeling in my stomach and then just puked for no reason at all, and no, i wasn't sick.



It's just i don't get it, she's always on my mind and bringing me down because i know i'll never be with here, and its just really taking its toll.



Please, don't make fun, i would talk to some of my friends or family but i'm just very embaressed about this.



And no, i have not watched any of the High School Musical movies, so this is not an obsesstion problem, and once again i knew about her before! Why now? Why when i'm about to move country and start a new school must i feel so depresed all the time about something so stupid of me?



So please, any real advice that could help? And please don't just give me advice that is obvious.



And i have had this feeling for about a month now, and nothing... and it doesn't seem like its going to go away.More Then Just A Crush?
you mean u knew her in person?

if so...it could be that you're overwhelmed with feelings of jealousy that have caused you to act in this manner....it could be jealousy because she's dating someone or maybe you're jealous because of her fame...these could all be contributing factors added up all together to make you think that you are, now, completely in love with her.