People without family or made the right decision of not speaking to them for ';insanity'; sake and peace of mind?

I always would like to believe my family cared, boy was I mislead after my mother died(who seem like the only sane one in the family) but to do family drug addicts ways she was killed. She could never get the love she wanted but she showed them love like crazy. saying that she didnt show me the love but now Im UNDERSTANDING!!!!



I grew up in a abandon house if not why didnt we have a window and door which was replace by wood? All those years, this mean, angry family NEVER got new ones. Im a child and thinking everyone else on the block has doors and window. It was so much chaos and hollering, physical/mental/verbal/ abuse, nobody caring about anyone unless it's drugs..no drugs more pain. we moved and some went their own way but continue to think with small minds! I have a cousin who treated her daughter the way she was. I took her daughter out blessed her with STUFF she should have feminime products/hairstyles/shoes and so forth. her mother called my aunt(both were probably jealous) aunt called me and said my lil cousin stole from me?? mind you my aunt never calls only to start trouble.



My grandmother kept me in mental hospitals from the time I was 18 till a while back(thinkin it was a game she'll call ppl and say ';shes in the crazy hospital?) once she lied to the doctors saying Im up all nite and sleep all day which she later she told me to get sum drugs for herself..Why did she do these things? My grandmother and aunt stole big things from me a couple of times I leave them along and feel guilty let them back in, they back to their shanagans...seem like it was more than drugs Im thinking something mentally wrong....ppl tell me I need to seek therapy but I dont trust them after my family played sike games w/ me and had me thinking I was the mental one...when clearly shows they are F**ked up!!! it's like I been diagnois with this and that BUT IF THEY EVER KNEW MY HELL OF A FAM...IM THE NORMAL ONE TRUST!!



Im glad Im nothing like them dont think Im better(must be)I just think about myself and give when I can to myself and others, I have enuff and can do with wat I have so I share and show love for myself. my family hated to see me happy. No one in my family is married my mother was but they were jealous she walked down the aisle..you can see a picture of my grandmother looking mean like she does (all the time) on a picutes..I was their scapegoat in the family they call cuss me out and feel better. Today I think why didnt they have SENSE ENUFF TO BUY A DOOR AND WINDOW(if you can answer let me know)!!!



They are beyond petty it's like it's nothing but hate my grandmother told me how she use to do demonic things to ppl when she was growin up which sum stuff she did to me(imagine 2 girls share a cup, but imagine being force w/o the throw up and eating from where that waste really goes??) she did my brother like that didnt make him eat it just made him dig his hands in it for something he didnt do, she use to burn him with hot water...she also a molester TRUST ME ON THIS...I thought she only did these things to me. I was mistaken but I got it the worst..ppl said I was her favorite guess her favorite was a insider for her the tournment she gaved out..



I left my family along after MJ died when he left his father out the will he wasnt that jacko..he had to know what it felt like to leave your father out but still can leave money to charities...I forgave my family I just would like to know what made them act like animals?? so much stuff happen to me in my life with this family which I forgive and they do more evil stuff to me but like I said I left them along!!



I would like to know how are they feeling and if their life still the same petty and dare wouldn't see the BIG PICTURE?? what would make ppl act like that for generations? my mother at peace rite now.. Im sad w/o a family but happy to know I love myself to not be bother.



it's like they always worried about the next instead of themselves, My mother had style and ppl loved her. I have style and ppl love me somehow Im unsure coming from the family I came from.People without family or made the right decision of not speaking to them for ';insanity'; sake and peace of mind?
Family is important.