Present day: it would take a lot of explaining of how it got to this point, but recently, she got a boyfriend and told me that she only loves me as a friend, she isn't the girl for me, and that she doesn't feel anything romantically for me. She said that I'm sweet, kind, great, and awesome, but she doesn't know why she doesn't feel anything for me, she just doesn't (and I'm tired of this happening to me). She wants me to find someone else. However, I still foolishly have hope. She said she's sorry, and I really mean a lot to her. If you could hear the way we used to talk to each other, you'd understand why I still like her and why I thought she liked me. We would steal each other's words, constantly say the other is so amazing, stuff like that. I know I should move on, but at this stage I have hope that she'll feel something in her heart for me.
start from the bottom. Tell me whether or not I was specific enough here. I was trying to avoid future heartbreak like what I feel now. She says presently that she's holding up her end of the agreement to date other people so she isn't in the wrong. I will soon post a more detailed version of the events leading up to now.
01:19 %26gt; =)
01:19 %26gt; yes it is
01:17 Me%26gt; we're off to a good start anyway, lol. honest communication is key :D
01:14 %26gt; =)
01:14 Me%26gt; right, no pressure
01:14 Me%26gt; well, yeah but still, lol. ok, depending on where we are at the end of the year, is whether or not we get together. :)
01:13 %26gt; *pressure
01:13 %26gt; this way there is no pressue
01:11 %26gt; :P
01:11 %26gt; im not the only girl around you know
01:10 Me%26gt; well I like the idea of just getting together once school let out, lol. but only if it was ok with you and you really wanted to
01:07 %26gt; sound good to you?
01:07 %26gt; yep
01:06 Me%26gt; I'm glad you think that. :) ok, to get things straight: we wait and see if we both find someone else, then when school is out, decide whether or not to get together?
01:03 %26gt; probably amazingly awesome
01:03 %26gt; and i dont know what a relationship with you would be like...
01:03 %26gt; well i dont know why it wouldnt be! i just wanted to clear things up =)
01:00 Me%26gt; of course, why wouldn't it be? also, what do you think a relationship with me would be like?
00:58 %26gt; thats okay though right?
00:55 %26gt; idk, we'll just wait and see what happens
00:54 Me%26gt; i just now saw that ';bad relationship'; message
00:53 Me%26gt; well, what would you prefer happen at the end of the year? do you want us both to find someone else?
00:52 %26gt; of course
00:51 Me%26gt; we should still have some fun beforehand though, of course =) (PRESENT NOTE: you should also know I met this girl on the internet. what I'm talking about here is that we were going to meet each other in person and watch movies at her house before she went off to college, which we did after this convo.)
00:50 %26gt; i'll probably find myself in a bad relationship anyways
00:49 %26gt; =)
00:48 Me%26gt; you're right. yeah, we shouldn't rush, let's just wait and see what happens
00:47 %26gt; well i dont think i will...but you never know what will happen
00:46 Me%26gt; that sounds good. did you change your mind about not finding another guy at college? if so, that's fine, unless you meant something else by ';you don't know where you'll be';
00:43 %26gt; i say we play it cool and see what happens
00:43 %26gt; well thats kinda mean to her...and i don't know where i'll be either
00:43 Me%26gt; the 1st one seems like something that could happen
00:41 Me%26gt; oh ok. but what if I decide in the summer to dump her for you? or if I'm still single?
00:38 %26gt; i mean you can go out with her for however long you want to
00:37 Me%26gt; alright then, I won't =)
I doubt she'd be better than you though, lol. and do you mean I could go out with her until we see each other in the summer?
00:35 %26gt; =)
00:35 %26gt; well don't
00:34 Me%26gt; well, thanks, lol, otherwise I would feel quite guilty
00:33 %26gt; and thats totally cool
00:32 %26gt; haha, yes it will!
00:32 Me%26gt; probably won't happen anyway XD
00:32 Me%26gt; well, I guess, lolWhat is meant to be the purpose of friends agreeing to date other people?
It just sounds so complicated. I wouldn't get into it myself. I don't trust her and I don't think she's being honest. I don't know man.
Joe.
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