SUBCONSCIOUS MIND TOLD A LIE. WHAT CAN I DO? I'M AT SUCH A LOSS.?

I've been with my spanish boyfriend for six months and have known him for almost a year before that. Before him, I was in a 3 year relationship that I knew was going nowhere. My ex was never open with me about his feelings, would criticize me openly in front of company and never agreed on any life goals so I ended it with him. I started dating my hispanic friend immediately. I always felt pretty close to him and felt a big connection as did he.



At the beginning of our relationship (about a month into it) he asked me if I was still thinking about my ex and if I still missed him. I am a VERY honest person and told him, of course I missed certain things and yes he did pop up in my mind every once in awhile. He also told me that he felt the same way about his ex that he had been with for 2 years right before I was in the picture. So we were both upfront to eachother and got over it and decided to keeps things going between us even though maybe we should have spent some time being single.



As of recently, we had decided to move in together. We've talked about sharing a life together, making things work no matter what and feeling like we're in it for the long haul. He asked me to marry him in the summer (to give me some time to think about it) and I said yes, it felt so right. I'm not like this because it usually takes me a long time to decide these things with anyone. We've only been together for 6 months and it feels so right with him, no one else has made me feel this way.



The problem is, on Thursday night, I stayed over his house and we talked a little more about making plans, bringing my stuff to his house, etc etc.. I finally told him I loved him and he said the same. His brother then called him at about 10:30 asking him to pick him up and hour away because his car broke down and he had no ride home. (I know what you're thinking! He's not cheating on me....It really was his brother, I heard him on the phone and I know he works in a different state. And most spanish people will do anything for their family members no matter what). So he gets back at about 12:30 and I'm already sleeping. He goes to put his arm around me and he tells me I say (because I was sleep-talking) ';No no your hands are too cold.'; Then he says, in a playful way, ';Oh you don't like me like that anymore?'; And he tells me I said, right after that ';No, I like you (my ex's name). So I confused him with my ex and now he thinks that I still have feelings for my ex, which is so far from the truth. It was actually surprising to me when I lost all feelings for my ex because I had been with him for so long. And I pointed out that I said ';like'; because it's not like I have any hatred for my ex. And I said why would I love the guy and then regress to ';liking'; him...that doesn't make any sense. The simple fact is that my ex was the longest relationship I've ever had, he was in my life for a lengthy time and he is going to pop up whether its when I'm awake or in my subconscious. My guy now says that when you're in that state of mind, you're speaking the truth. I know that is not true, it was more a thing of habit, a comfort zone that I got used to for 3 years, not because I still have feelings for him.



The guy I'm with now, I love him so much and don't want him out of my life. He says he can't be with a person who likes someone else. He told me how hard this was and how much it hurt when he heard me say that. I even caught him crying when I tried to talk to him at his house yesterday. This just happened so I'm thinking maybe he needs time to process it in his head or he could really want it to be over for good, but this doesnt make any sense because he wanted to live with me and have me as his wife. That is not something you take lightly, it's not a joke. He could be really hurt right now and needs time to calm down and think it over. What do you guys think?



Let me be clear, I can't lie to you people on here because I don't even know any of you. And I want to tell the exact truth of what happened because I want a real answer, not something I want to hear. I know how I feel....I feel everything for the man I'm with now and nothing for the man I fell out of love with long ago. I've told my guy all of this and he refused to believe me. And the other thing is we both work together, most of the time as partners, in the same room, sitting next to eachother so it's really difficult and I don't know what else I can say to him to make him see the truth.



So what I'd like from you all, if you could, is to help me understand how he felt when that happened, but also see my point of view because I am losing someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with over something that is not true but also something that I have no way of proving. What can I do?SUBCONSCIOUS MIND TOLD A LIE. WHAT CAN I DO? I'M AT SUCH A LOSS.?
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