An Email to my boyfriend about our situation. What do you think?

hey aaron, i miss you so much and i hope you have a good flight... or had a good flight... depends on when you get this message... anyways, i just really need to talk to you because i tried to go back to sleep and i couldnt because i feel like i havent tried everything possible to keep you from breaking up with me. you may not think this is important and i should just accept the fact that you're leaving (or you've left) and you don't want a long distance relationship but you told me before, several times that we'd make this work and that you'd rather try and have me then not have me at all... i want that aaron... i don't like how you're doubting the relationship. you mean everything to me and i dont want to just be your friend, that's not enough for me. i feel like if you really loved me, you would at least try to make this work. i dont think that is too much to ask from someone who you're in a serious relationship with. you want to talk about awkward? what about coming out to see you and not kissing or saying i love you because we're not sure if either one of us is over each other yet(im pretty sure that made sense...) i just want to keep things the way they are until we find out if we're moving there or not... it sounds like you already gave up and you don't think there's a chance we'll move out there but remember how we talked about the opportunity there and how much fun we'll have? what happened to that? you know it's bad enough you're not here anymore but to break up with me without even trying to make things work... that's horrible... i've never felt this bad before. if we're just going to be friends and you don't care about continuing this relationship then i can't help but wonder why i would waste my time coming out to see you. after that, you're not going to come to hawaii to visit me... face it, if we really break up- you will eventually meet someone and i will not even cross your mind. on top of that, if we really break up and you move on and i come out to see you, that might bring back some old feelings. can't we just see if we're going to move out there? if we break up now and later we move to texas, and then we start dating again- we'll be starting over. i dont want to start over. we're pretty strong now, don't you think? i don't want to screw that up. you say that you don't want to grow apart as a couple but what's the difference if we grow apart independently? either way, i'm losing you. i think there's a bigger chance that we won't lose each other if we keep at this relationship... what we have is really good... and i dont think you should throw it all away just because you're moving and especially when there's a chance that we might move there. you said you and sarah grew apart, well that might not happen with us. you will never know unless you try, but you won't even do that. don't we deserve a chance to make this work or do you really just want to throw it all away because you don't think it's going to work? i remember a few months back when you came to my house to hang out, and this was one day after we went to pizza hut and you talked to my dad about moving, and you gave me a big hug and told me that we'd make it work. i was so happy because you seemed so confident. now, here we are- you're going back to texas and you won't even try. i know that it's easy to say stuff like that when you're not actually moving just then, but i'm not asking you to promise that we will be together forever, i'm asking for a chance to make it work. how did we go from talking about maybe having a kid in the future and maybe getting married (when we thought i was pregnant) to just giving up completely? I'm so distraught about you leaving, but the fact that there's no aaron and zia anymore, hurts just as much. can't you understand that this is probably harder for me than it is for you (the breakup) because you're my first love? I had all my firsts with you and you're not even going to try to stay with me when you said you would. i'm sorry if i'm being too persistent but i love you too much to let go of you. my plan was that if we broke up, i'd never talk to you again and i'd ignore your phone calls. but the truth is, i can't not talk to you... when i hear the phone ring i get all excited because i know it's you. I feel like there is no life outside of our relationship... i just got so used to hearing your voice and seeing your smile that it's foreign and really scary to be without it. i've been crying all morning and i don't know how i'm going to get through this. i love you SO much, i cant believe how much i love you... and i already miss you so much. i miss your scent, your face, your voice, your smile, your touch, your lips... your laugh... no one is perfect but you're pretty close, to me... and i think we're perfect together. watching you walk away was one of the hardest things i've had to do, i felt like you were walking out of my life... and in a way you were... because no i don't get to spend the day wiAn Email to my boyfriend about our situation. What do you think?
I do not know if I would have had the guts to put something like this out there.





Sadly, it takes two people to make this relationship work.





Believe me, if the both of you do split up, and he does meet someone else, you will cross his mind time after time: haunting him of his choice of purgatory over heaven, and all the ';what-if's'; that never were or will be.





Good luck.